90 Day Challenge

Growing up I came from a huge Italian family of beautiful women.I have always had an attitude that lingers in the hearts of men.Women have never liked me or were always jealous of me.I have always been dangerously gorgeous.The body of an Italian goddess with the attitude of a Mafioso Princess.I never wanted to be the Queen because she bears too much responsibility.Fun is my middle name and I love to experience life.In my twenties I was all about myself.Every man that wanted to marry me and bear my children I ran from.The day I turned thirty years old my life changed.My biological clock starting not ticking but pounding out of my chest.I was scared to death to become an old maid and never have children.In my family it is un-thought of to have babies and not be married.God forbid my mother would be mortified!My mothers favorite quote is " Do not embarrass me !"when any of us walk out the front door.So fast forward and I met my husband,Anthony,we were married and the babies did not start coming.Five years of fertility treatments,one endometriosis operation and one miscarriage later still no babies.Then the unthinkable car accident that took my sister,Gina and her unborn child,Sophia.I gave up!Crying in a ball on the couch for months.I awoke to a dream one day.Gina telling me I was pregnant and to go to the Doctors or I would lose the baby.I ignored my dream until I could not get the message out of my head.After 8 over the counter pregnancy tests and twenty four hours to wait the Doctor confirmed I was pregnant!!!!!Due the same exact day of the fatal accident that took our girls.My beautiful daughter,Antonella,was born a year after the accident.Gina sent me the greatest gift.If you knew Gina you would understand how persistent she was.Gina bugged God until he sent me a baby.Last summer,a year an a half after Antonella,my period was late.Took a test and it was negative.Two weeks later took another pregnancy test and it was positive.The Doctor confirmed and I was due in March.The same due date my niece Sophia was to be born on.Another miracle sent to us from above.My gorgeous daughter ,Arianna was due last March.Now six months later I am fatter than I was when I gave birth.I have eaten my way through our kitchen,the supermarket and every fast food restaurant.This is the fattest I have ever been in my life.I am ashamed and embarrassed to go out in public.I do not want to look at myself naked!It is time to stop feeling sorry for myself.I am putting everything on the line and taking the 90 day challenge.I want to have lost at least 30 pounds by the end of the ninety days.I hope you will follow me in my journey.I am taking one second,one minute and one day at a time.Wish me luck !!!!!